Miss, Missed, Missing You

I thought for once that forever is with you
But now I am tired thinking of what to do
Because now you’ve left me all alone
Forever is gone, no comfort zone.

I’ve tried my best to be okay
So that people around me will have nothing to say
I’ve tried my best to put a smile
But often times I see myself cry.

I am frustrated knowing that
Everything’s finished – all that we’d had
I feel like I can go no more
But still here I am, opening up that single door.

I miss, I missed… and I am still missing you
Desperately hoping that you are feeling the same way too
I am trying my best to let you go
Because consistencies and possibilities are getting low.

I always wanted to go back...
Back when you are filling all the things I lack
I always wanted to hold your hand
But it seems like right now I can’t.

Now I know, that maybe this is the time to let go
I hate it, this fragility and weakness I show
Till now… I am holding on to that single thread
Continuing fighting, even if the light shouts red.

(originally published in another platform on April 20, 2013)